Reflections on Part one.

I am now up to the final exercise of part one and my mind is mush already. The next and final exercise does not bode well for me either.
I am academically challenged. I fully admit that. After undertaking Photography 2: Landscape and now this module, all I can say is that my passion for photography is dying.To the point that I just don't want to pick up my camera anymore. I appreciate that this is a photography degree and that you need to progress to another level moving up to Level 2, but theory and analysis are not my strong points. I am always self critical of my own work bit I shoot what I see. I'm not good with organised shoots as I feel uncomfortable giving direction and then don't want my subjects feeling uncomfortable too. People say I have a talent and an 'eye' for photography but I don't analyse who, what and why I take the photographs that I do. If it looks good to me, I photograph it. But now my discomfort is yet again stretched to analysing who, what and why I have taken or others have taken photographs and I feel I can't muster up anything to say.
The ten point system is great for people like me as it gives me a starting point to waffle about something and anything that I can talk about with any relevance but here I am on the cusp of analysing an essay which I am barely going to be able to understand let alone talk about and I am starting to panic.
Photography for me is a hobby. Something I, used to, like doing for fun. I have no future intentions to sell and of my work, it will always be a hobby. I feel it unimportant to know how to create a book cover or know how to make my work professional. I thought this degree course would be more about the photography and not about planning event coverage and who the 19th and 19th century artists who inspired landscape photographers were and why. I have been out of my comfort zone and possibly my depth now since starting level 2 and once again I find myself debating whether this course will get the better of me. Only time will tell. All I can do is give it my best. Although I'm not convinced that my best will be good enough.